Growing up, having kids never really crossed my mind....
April 10, 2018
“Growing up, having kids never really crossed my mind. I knew that one day sooner or later I was going to meet someone, fall in love, get married and of course have kids. I just didnt know that it would come way sooner than what I once pictured.
My life was just perfect, me and my boyfriend had stable jobs, brand new cars, we were living it up. At age 22 I found out I was pregnant. Tears of happiness came out because I was going to have a baby with my soulmate. He was happy and scared for us even thou he supported me all the way, reality hit me, we were both going through hard times from losing our jobs to living with my parents and having alot of financial problems which made me take the decision of ending my pregnancy.
I regret it and I will never forget myself for doing this. It haunts me everyday, and I always think what it could have been. My life will never be the same. I ask God for forgiveness. And I truly feel like I dont deserve to have kids. Maybe I shouldnt feel this way but I do. Only times when I feel some peace of mind is when I pray. I hope I find the peace I need.” —Diane