I feel like my life has spiraled out of control...
December 2, 2014
“I feel like my life has spiraled out of control. Its like every time I become pregnant my mind automatically tells me "This is bad, you can't do this, you're not ready, it's not the right time." I'm a 25yo nursing student graduating in May. I've been married a little over a year. I became pregnant about 5 months ago and terminated because of school.
My husband was devastated. I found out I was pregnant about a week ago. I hadn't even missed my period yet, I just knew. I feel so guilty and ashamed. I can't let anything interfere with me finishing school and taking boards. I scheduled an appointment for Monday. After every appointment I swear to myself that was the last time. This will be my 5th. The first one I had no regrets. Second, same thing. I did what was best for me. I was 19 and not in a relationship with the father. The third, I was 23 and had a d&c with no anesthesia because I had no one to take me to my appointment. After that I was scarred for life. I vowed I’d never have another. I've only been a couple weeks along each time but I still feel an incredible amount of guilt.” —Anonymous