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"I honestly don’t even know where to start but I know it’ll help someone. I never thought I would have to go through something like this but I came to realize it can happen to anyone. I recently broke up with my ex after a 10 month relationship. About 4 months ago I started having symptoms, at first I stopped eating then right after I couldn’t eat food. I would throw up anything I would try to eat. I would go to work and spend most of my time vomiting and it took me 3 days of this to consider pregnancy. I remember he showed up at my job to argue about something else and I was doubtful about telling him. By this time my best friend already new my suspicion and we were planning to go for a pregnancy test but I decided to let him know what was going on. He took me straight after to take the pregnancy test at a public restroom.

I knew by his reaction having a baby was not a good thing. My dream has always been to become a mom but not this way. He made me promise him I wasn’t going to have the baby and somehow he manipulated me to not have it . The day of the abortion he went with me and all I remember is wanting to run and not do it especially when they showed me the ultrasound at 6 weeks. As soon as I got out of the clinic, I was destroyed. I didn’t want to talk to anybody. He was there for me only that day. After that he left me alone, he completely disappeared a whole day. It was really hard for me to go through this alone but yet I’m glad it happened because I would’ve had the son of a complete asshole. It hurts me a lot but I know this path is definitely better than if I would’ve chosen differently. " - Anonymous

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