I was 20 when I got pregnant...

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“I was 20 when I got pregnant for the first time. I was on the depo shot and l, because I had tried with my ex to get pregnant before, was convinced I couldn’t have kids. (Silly me.) I had been with the guy I was seeing for about a month. The very first time we had sex I got pregnant. I didn’t have a job, it was summer and I had spent it getting high on whatever and day drinking. I ran off with this guy to ‘escape’ my hometown and found myself pregnant. It wasn’t an hour later after I had taken the test that I was on the phone with the only abortion clinic in my state. It took me about 5 minutes to decide I was having an abortion. Initially, adoption did cross my mind, but the guy didn’t want that. He told me, ‘either we raise it or we abort it.’

The thought of raising a child with him made me sick. He was a terrible person. His ‘income’ was drug dealing (and he was really bad at it, mind you). I made the appointment and within about a week it was all over with. Thinking back on it now, I didn’t even have time to think about it. I just knew I couldn’t do it at that time, and I knew for sure he couldn’t do it. Later on down the road, he told me that if I had kept that child he would have killed himself. He died a few years after of a drug overdose. It’s been almost 6 years now and I still think about it from time to time. I’d have a 5 year old now with no dad if I hadn’t gone through with the abortion. I’m still not really financially stable. I don’t regret it but I do regret putting myself in the position to where I needed an abortion.” - Anonymous

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