“I found out I was pregnant at 26 years old, having been with my boyfriend for 3 years. We were happy but had been through a lot during our relationship, such as the death of his father. It just wasn’t the right time for a baby - I was in the middle of purchasing my first tiny, little apartment and my boyfriend was getting ready to re-launch his small business. We still had lots of travelling we wanted to do, and we weren’t financially stable enough to welcome a baby into our lives. After some hard times, we really wanted to live our lives and be happy as just the two of us before settling down. I decided to have an abortion for the sake of our happiness and that of our future children.
After 2 unsuccessful scans (the pregnancy hadn’t progressed enough yet), I had to wait an agonizing 2 weeks before I had my medical abortion at 6 weeks pregnant. I had one pill by mouth and inserted 4 vaginally all on the same day. My boyfriend and I then went home and waited. Within 2 hours I had bad stomach cramps, but I couldn’t have imagined the pain that would follow. I can only guess they are what early labor contractions feel like. I would have about 10 seconds rest with a 30 second ‘contraction’ which I can only compare to the most severe period cramps (and general pain!) of my life. Alongside this I also had terrible nausea and diarrhea. No position eased the pain and I found sitting on the toilet with a hot water bottle on my lap was the only way I could cope. This lasted around an hour, during which time the bleeding began. Eventually the cramps began to ease, and I was able to stand and return to my bed. I stood up briefly at one point about half an hour later and my boyfriend and I shared a hug. He looked at me and said something which made me laugh and as I laughed, I felt something almost fall out of me. I quickly went to the loo and pushed gently. I heard a “plop” into the water which must’ve been the embryo and sac leaving my body. When I wiped, I also saw a big clot. I flushed without looking into the water as I was afraid to for some reason.
When I returned to my boyfriend in the bedroom, I felt such a sense of relief. It may sound silly, but the fact that the embryo left my body during a moment of love and laughter made me feel forgiven and at peace with my decision. For the following hours, I just experienced heavy bleeding and limited pain. I felt like I had not only my body back, but also mine and my boyfriend’s futures back. I know we’ll make wonderful parents one day and I know that this experience will make us strive harder to be the best and most successful people that we can be. Even through all the pain, I do not regret having my abortion and I wholeheartedly believe that every woman has every right to make the same decision I did - regardless of her situation.” - Anonymous