“So, I didn’t even have a missed period yet, but I’ve been pregnant before, so I know what it felt like. My boobs were way too sore & my nipples were tender to the touch. I took 2 tests & both were positive. I immediately broke down, because I have had 3 abortions before & I felt so stupid to let myself be put in this situation again. When I had my last 3 abortions, they were all surgical. I was put to sleep with anesthesia & was woken up after and felt crazy cramps. I remember everything and I remember how much guilt I felt. I think what hurts the most is the man I got pregnant with every time is the same man I hope to spend the rest of my life with and start a family with in the future.
My appointment is tomorrow & I came to this website to remind myself that I am not alone. That sometimes you have to be selfish and do what’s best for you and your future. I can’t bring a kid into this world, not when I haven’t even figured out so much in my life. So, if you came on here to read stories similar to yours, I hope that you know that you are not wrong for doing this or wanting to have an abortion. It takes a strong woman to know when it’s not the right time to be a mom. We have the choice & you must always do what’s best for yourself. I’m sad I have to do this again, and I pray that it’s the last time I have to. But I would be more concerned if I wasn’t sad. It’s okay to be sad, hurt, and relieved after it’s done. None of this is wrong. With love, always.” - Anonymous