“My name is Hannah. I am 22 years old and about to graduate university with my criminology degree. I’ve lived a pretty hard life with a lot of family and personal difficulties. I have been on and off with this one person who has been a constant in my life for a few years. When we were off, we were never apart. He still is and always will be one of my best friends.
Anyways, we had sex this one night, nothing new. A few weeks go by and I started to feel a little different. My breasts were very tender, I was constantly tired, overly emotional and every now and then I was nauseous, but not enough to think I was pregnant. My period did not come in October, but I was not concerned because my period had never been normal to begin with. I had gone to an amusement park with friends, riding rides you should never go on if you’re pregnant. Keep in mind, I am also a university student, so going out on weekend nights is typical. I was going out, drinking alcohol, not eating properly or taking care of myself.
Flash forward a few weeks and I began to feel nauseous constantly. I started to throw up. I hadn’t eaten anything all day and I was throwing up, I tried to eat something small and I was throwing up, I walked up a flight of stairs and I was throwing up and so on. I decided to wait until the time in November when my period was expected to come, but it never did. I decided it was time to get some pregnancy tests to find out the truth. I took a test and it came back positive. The weird thing was, I wasn’t scared, sad, mad or upset. It was like I knew I was pregnant all along and I was okay with it.
I called the clinic that does abortions closest to me and made an appointment. When I went in, I found out that I was 7 weeks and 4 days pregnant. At the time I had told no one. I went on my own and kept it all to myself. I was scared that I would be judged by anyone that I told, especially because I grew up in a pro-life environment. I ended up going through with a medical abortion to terminate my pregnancy. I was completely okay with ending my pregnancy because I knew in my heart that I was not being fair to my unborn child. I know that I will be a great mom in the future when I am financially stable, after I’ve lived my own life, and when I am healthy. I want my baby to have the full potential that he or she can when the time is right. I had the abortion for myself. It was one of the most painful things I have ever gone through. Emotionally and physically. I am so proud of myself that I made the decision to go through with it because I am now able to take care of myself and make sure I am prepared to welcome a child into my life in the future when I’m set in a proper relationship and we are both ready to start a family.” —Hannah