I'm 19 years old...

“I'm 19 years old, and about 3 weeks ago I found out I was pregnant. I was so anxious and terrified for the future. I was willing to keep the baby and be a single mom, because I know that I can do anything I set my mind do; however, after talking it out with the guy who got me pregnant, we decided it would be best to get an abortion.

I know that he would not be in my life or the baby's, and I know from experience that it is so hard to not have both parents present. After my first Planned Parenthood consultation, we agreed to do the abortion pill. I thought it would be easier and more private than a d&c (surgical abortion). After two days of contemplation of whether or not I was making the right choice, I went back to the office, and took the first pill at 11 am. I didn't feel any side effects from the first pill. I filled my prescription for Vicodin that the doctor had prescribed. I knew that the Vicodin would help a lot from the side effects from the other pills I would take later.

At 11:30 that night, I inserted the pills instead of taking them orally. I had read that this was more effective and less painful. It wasn't until about 2 am when I woke up and started to feel the side effects. I had just started bleeding about 2 and a half hours of inserting the pills. I took a Vicodin and an ibuprofen. In all honesty, the pain from the pills was absolutely horrific. I tried the heating pad, but that didn't help too much. I took another two Vicodin and more of the extra-strength ibuprofen that the doctor had given me. But I will say, the pain was really horrific. I'm so thankful that I had the Vicodin and the ibuprofen, because those eventually knocked me out and I slept it off. Another thing I want to mention is that I had read stories online about women passing really big clots, the size of a walnut or a lemon. I want to share my story because I did not have that. The bleeding was similar to a period, except the blood was more watery.

The decision for my abortion was heartbreaking and very personal. I wanted to share my story focusing more on the effects and the physical symptoms of the pill in case anyone was anxious about the pain. Yes, the pain from the pills was very rough, but I only felt it for about 2 hours before I fell back asleep. I know that I made the right decision, although it still breaks my heart. I know that someday I'll have beautiful children and will be an amazing mother. I just know that that time is not now. Another piece of advice I want to mention is if you are getting an abortion or have already gotten one, please forgive yourself if you are feeling shame. If you are a person of faith, know that God forgives you and that God loves you. This isn't an easy experience but it is one that matters and one that hopefully we will learn from.” —Anonymous

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