It's already been a year...

“It's already been a year since I had my abortion at the age of 23. I was six weeks along, going through some relationship troubles, less than a week from starting a new job, and nowhere near ready to bring a child into the world. I still remember the appointment and the procedure itself clear as day. I can honestly say that I've had far more unpleasant experiences at the bank, waiting in line at the coffee shop, and dealing with service personnel than I did sitting in that Planned Parenthood clinic.

I had a surgical procedure with no sedation; I didn't want to be drugged up and out of it for a procedure that would only take a few minutes. The doctor was kind and the whole thing was seriously quick. It starts out a lot like a pap smear/pelvic exam, they numb your cervix, and then they put in a cannula and start the suction. I won't lie when I say that it DID hurt when I got my uterus suctioned—it honestly felt like my worst period cramps times ten. Again though, it was very quick. The actual cramping lasted less than ten seconds, and the whole procedure about 2.5 minutes.

I imagine it was probably nothing compared to giving birth. It was totally worth it. I felt a range of emotions after having the abortion. Initially, and for about a week after the procedure, I was feeling sad and a sense of loss—but that's only because of the pregnancy hormones that linger around for a while after. Seriously, it will take some time for your hormones to go back to their pre-pregnancy state after having an abortion. At the same time, I was also extremely grateful and relieved that I had a choice, and that I didn't have to be forced into carrying an unwanted pregnancy to term.

It was hard for a little while, but once my hormones leveled out, I was fine, and life went on as normal. In fact, some aspects of my life are even better now because of it. And here I am a year later. My partner and I have worked out our issues and are still happily together, still kid-free, still getting our lives together so that we can one day be prepared to start the family we want. I'm exploring better career opportunities and can better move up in the world. And I'm living life as a carefree woman in her mid-twenties.

I still have so much to look forward to. I still think about my abortion often, but only in positive aspects, and in a manner that is nothing short of happy, joyous, and grateful. Being able to end my pregnancy allowed me to keep my life on track and paved the way for better opportunities in my life. If you're facing difficult thoughts and emotions after having after an abortion, I want to tell you that it will get better. You will be okay. And it will get easier with time. I'm thankful and will be for years to come.” —Nic

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