The first day I arrived on my college campus...

“The first day I arrived on my college campus I knew something was wrong. I didn't have my normal period in July. I thought maybe this was a symptom of the IUD implant I got just before I left for college.

I had some spotting for only 2 days; therefore, I knew I had to take a pregnancy test. I bought a normal test for $7 that carried 2 tests in the box. I arrived back to my dorm, went straight to the bathroom and took the test. Walking out of the bathroom with complete shock on my face I looked at my roommate and said, ‘they both came back positive.’ We both didn't know what to say or do, so I called my close cousin, Amanda. She told me not to panic because this was all a part of the IUD.

I called my mom and she said the exact same thing. Everyone was saying the same things, but I knew deep down that I was pregnant. My body was changing. My body was getting ready for a pregnancy. My stomach started to get bigger, but not because of the baby, because my body was naturally putting on fat. I immediately started calling OBGYN’s where I lived, and some said it was the IUD and some said I was pregnant. I will never forget one doctor told me the absolute best way to get 100% conformation was getting blood work done to see if my hormone levels were increasing, and sure enough they were.

I went on to call the closest abortion clinic near me and they told me to come in to confirm I was, and then the whole procedure would get started about scheduling a date for the abortion. I went into the clinic with the support of my roommate and they saw nothing. The doctors were in shock about this whole situation because just a week ago I had a negative test when they put my IUD in, and all of a sudden, I’m positive. Nothing made sense.

But the most important thing was the doctors knew I was since I had a blood test done that once again is super accurate, nothing more accurate than a blood test being done. I went back into the clinic 2 weeks later to get the procedure done. I was in the clinic for 6 hours, basically the whole day. It was a bunch of waiting, going back in to get test done, talking to a therapist to discuss if this was the right option for me (which I knew it was).

Finally, I went back to the medical side and was instructed to how to take the medication, since I was only 6 weeks pregnant. I had the option for the surgical, but I knew the medication would be the best option, since I was a collegiate athlete. I wanted to get back to my sport as soon as possible. I saw other women in there who were doing the same thing I was, getting an abortion. I wanted to know their stories, but I didn't ask them.

After, I arrived back to campus I had to wait 36 hours to take the second pill which would cause the bleeding. 36 hours later I took it and instantly felt pain in my lower abdomen. I was bleeding for 2 weeks, until one morning there wasn't any more bleeding. It was a bittersweet feeling that everything was over with. 2 more weeks later I was scheduled for my follow up. They confirmed I wasn't pregnant anymore.

I felt a little sad, but in the end, I know my journey that God has planned for me didn't have me having a baby at 18. I pray that my story will help others who are in the process of this or maybe already got an abortion done. The overwhelming feeling of the day of is something I will never forget for the rest of my life, August 8th, 2018. This will make me and whoever love and appreciate our future children that much more.

For those who don't believe you will be forgiven by God, God sent his one and only Son to die on a cross for our sins. ‘It’ll clear the bitterness away It can even set a prisoner free. There is no end to what its power can do. So let it go and be amazed by what you see through eyes of grace. The prisoner that it really frees is you, forgiveness.’ Don't be a prisoner in your own thoughts, know that God is with you and knows your individual story. You are forgiven... I have been forgiven.” —Faith

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