"I am 20 and I had an abortion 4 days ago. I was 8 weeks 5 days pregnant. I think the hardest part of choosing to have an abortion is the thoughts you face internally. Is it right? Am i taking away a life? What will people think? Can i handle it? Am I selfish? It is really hard.
My boyfriend and I took our time to think about it. Our decision was to have a surgical abortion. He was and is very supportive. We want to have kids and i can not wait till that day comes. However we want to be stable financially and married. He currently is studying full time and I work part time. Having a baby just wasn't feasible.
Through out the whole procedure I had to tell myself what was necessary to get me through it. I was so conflicted. I was happy but yet so sad. I wanted to keep her but I knew what i needed to do.
The process of the abortion was quick and easy. The nurses and doctors were extremely caring and relaxing. The hardest part was the scan. Seeing her heart beat made me cry for hours. I loved her. After the abortion it affects you mentally. I had regret, sadness and shame. My baby will always hold a special place in my heart. On May 04th I will always celebrate her. I will never forget and I hope that she is in heaven. I love you very much Luna-May." —Rachel