I have always been pro-choice, but never felt like abortion was for me personally...

“I have always been pro-choice, but never felt like abortion was for me personally. My boyfriend at the time has only been dating for a few months when I found out I was pregnant. I was nervous to tell him because he already had four kids and I wasn't sure how he would react.

He was very calm and supportive. He asked me if I was going to have an abortion, which surprised me because I didn't think he would support that. I wasn't sure what I was going to do. I never planned on having one. He said he would support whatever decision I made.

After reading up about it I made the difficult decision to have an abortion. I wasn't ready to be a mother and I didn't want to have a child with somebody I wasn't even sure I would end up with. I made the appointment for the next week because I wasn't sure how far along I was and didn't want to wait.

Unfortunately, my boyfriend was going out of the country for a wedding that same weekend so I had to go alone. I wasn't scared or sad. I really didn't feel much of anything. I was just ready for it to happen.

I chose to do the medical abortion which are the pills. The doctors and nurses were very friendly and didn't seem to be judgmental at all. The doctor inserted a pill into my vagina and then I had to put some under my tongue and let them dissolve (that was the worst part), they gave me some medicine for the pain, then I was on my way.

Before I could even make it home I started feeling a little dizzy and had to go to the bathroom very bad. I fell asleep for awhile and when I woke up I felt nauseous and was in a lot of pain. I still needed to go to the store to get "abortion supplies" so as soon as the pain subsided a little I went to a Walgreens down the street. I could barely stand for the 15 minutes I was in there.

I rushed back home and stayed in bed for the rest of the day. I was in pretty bad pain and bleeding heavily for the next few days. I couldn't tell anyone at first because I wasn't sure how they would react. Eventually I started telling a few people I knew I could trust. I still haven't told anyone in my family. I know they wouldn't judge but I'm just not ready to share that part of my life.

This was only a few months ago and I don't regret having one. I don't feel depressed about it. I do think about it almost every day, but I just think about the 'what ifs.' My boyfriend and I aren't together right now so I know I made the right decision. Having an abortion was one of the most excruciatingly painful experiences of my life. And as much as I don't want to ever end up being a single mother, I will never have another abortion. It's just not for me. But I do still support the right for other women to choose what they do with their bodies. Nobody should have their rights taken away.” —Anonymous

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