I knew right when I saw that + sign that now is not the right time for me..

“It was August 1st when I found out I was pregnant. I knew right when I saw that + sign that now is not the right time for me and my boyfriend to have a baby. I scheduled my consult at Planned Parenthood. I was so nervous, I had to anxiously wait four days for my appointment because that was when it worked best with my work schedule.

I just graduated college and starting my first full time job in the mental health field. I was just starting my professional career with plans to attend grad school. I am not ready for a baby yet. I want to have several babies, but not yet.

I was so distracted that entire week at work, couldn't eat, had so many dreams I couldn't find the clinic, had to keep the baby, etc. When I went to my appointment the girls working at Planned Parenthood were SO amazing. They were so nice and kind and sweet. Thankfully there were no protesters outside that day either so this appointment went so smoothly. I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant. They asked if I wanted to see the ultrasound or hear the heartbeat. I declined both but requested a copy of the ultrasound to look at later when I was ready. Even though the nurse implied the in clinic abortion might be a quicker and easier experience for me I already had my mind made up to have a medical abortion. I wanted to be in the comfort of my own home.

A week later I arrived at Planned Parenthood for my medical abortion. Again, the staff was amazing. Unfortunately, there were protesters outside that told me I needed God. I did what I was told, I ignored them and went into the facility. I took the first pill and an antibiotic in front of my MD. After, I went to CVS to pick up my pain killer, anti nausea medication, and the second part of the abortion process. That next day I took off work which was the best thing I could have done. It helped me psychologically prepare for what was ahead. It also gave me time to clean my house and gather what I need so I was in a clean, comfy environment.

When my boyfriend came home from work, I took the pain killer and anti nausea medication. I waited my half hour then placed the four abortion pills in my cheek and waited another half hour for them to dissolve before swallowing the remaining pieces. About five minutes after I swallowed the remaining pieces I got very hot and nauseous. I threw up. I also had a fever and chills which was to be expected. The first hour felt like one long intense period cramp. After that, I felt better by the hour. The nausea was gone, plus I took my pain medication as prescribed. The following morning I felt even better. It has now been three days since. I am still bleeding but it just feels like a period.

Things I recommend if you choose the at home abortion pill: gatorade, snacks you enjoy, a heating pad for cramps, someone at home with you to help you with anything you need, and things to do such as movies, homework etc. I know I couldn't have done it without my boyfriend by my side during the entire at home abortion process.

Most importantly, I am so thankful I have Planned Parenthood. I stand for them because they stand for woman like me. I never thought I would have an abortion and until I was put in this situation I did not realize how fortunate we are as women to have a choice here in America. My abortion experience went as well as the situation could go.” —Anonymous

#notready #protesters #medicationabortion #gratitude

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