I'm not sure it's much of a story really...

"I'm not sure it's much of a story really. In March of 2015 I found out I was 3 months pregnant. My boyfriend and I considered abortion because well neither one of us could take care of a child. Since my family is against abortion I had to keep it a secret. I paid for my abortion alone with my now ex taking no responsibility.

It was a very lonely, scary and guilty experience. I felt every emotion from sadness to guilt. Regret, as soon as I saw my ultrasound I wanted my baby. I never wanted the abortion But I couldn't turn back then. I am sad to say I allowed pressure from my ex to make me continue. I went into depression afterwards and it's taken a lot to bring myself to a place where I'm able to deal. Breaking up with my boyfriend, a lot of self help and self depricating behavior. It's almost a year later and life feels good but I know that inside when I think about my abortion, there are still horrid feelings there. I'm not even sure how to deal with it. Where to turn. For so long it has felt that I didn't have anyone.

One thing I am thankful for are the wonderful people at abortion clinic who helped to make my experience a good one. They did try their best to provide me with all the services I have needed since then aside from therapy.

I wish I had looked into more options for experiencing my Abortion and talking about it. It has always seemed a taboo that I couldn't talk about no matter how much I wanted to scream it or cry.

If I could say anything to women who have experienced or will experience an abortion it's that you're brave and amazing. What you are doing, no matter the reason is your choice. You should not feel ashamed." —Alexandria Williams

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