"I am 24 years old and this is my story. I have been pregnant 3 times in my life and had 2 abortions. I felt very young and dumb when it happened. I had no friends or family or mother and was very lonely. I had had only 1 bf from 16-18 but he was physically abusive so I left him but straight away went with the one that made it all happen. I was relieved to be with someone I thought was good to me because he hadnt hit me. Stupidly not being careful enough and thinking him pulling out would be good enough after about a month of dating I got pregnant. I was living out of home and didn't have any money and hadn't even met his parents yet. I was so against abortion before this but when it happens to you everything changes. He didn't want it so I made up my mind but felt as if i wasnt really present. I went through it on my own and didn't tell anyone. Then 9 months later after keeping it bottled inside and feeling horrible I felt worse then ever. I could of had a baby at this time. It hit me hard. And what does my bf say to me... I wanted to have a baby anyway so lets. So what happens I get pregnant again and tell everyone but then he backs out. So I don't want to be a single mum so I have another one. But then after all this we are still together and I get pregnant again but deep down I know he is not a good person to be having a baby with but was so hurt by what I'd done that I was craving a baby. So I had a beautiful little girl but then left him when she was 9months old because she made me realize I don't want her around this toxic relationship. She is 3 now and my world but my god do I have the worse ex in history. I'm stuck to this evil horrible guy now." —Emma
