I was, and still am, 18 years old...

"I was, and still am, 18 years old. I already had a baby in '12 and he had died at 3 months old. 7 months after he passed, I found out I was pregnant again. But I wasn't ready to have a baby. My son's dad wasn't happy about the pregnancy either. But I was completely broke, homeless stayin at my sister’s house, and I damn sure wasn't mentally ready to have another baby. I did what I felt I had to do. There was no other choice. I had found out when I was a month. But durin that first month I had been drinkin almost every other day, smokin cigs and jus being reckless. So I knew instantly and without a doubt that it was the only way to go. I had no one I could talk to about it so it was an ugly black cloud for me. It was almost relief when it was over, minus the thoughts that follow sometimes." —DiDi

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