"I have always been pro-choice but when I was put in a situation to decide what choice I had to make it was the hardest decision of my life. I had broke up with my ex before I found out I was pregnant. I was so scared I didn't know what to do, I called him and told him I was pregnant.
He was so excited telling me how much he loved me and what not. The next day we went to planned parenthood and took a test, it was positive. I couldn't stop crying. He didn't have a care in the world how I felt as long as he was happy. He kept telling me not to get an abortion that it was against gods will (I'm not a religious person).
I went home and all I was thinking was how was I going to raise this baby. I had a part time job at a salon, I still lived at home with my parents, my ex didn't have a job he made money selling I have no idea what. But he kept telling me he was going to change he was going to treat me better and get a job to take care of me and the baby so I tried to be how we used to be when we were together.
When I finally told my parents they were so hurt and disappointed in me I felt horrible. I knew I had let them down. My father told me to get rid of it, my mother wanted me to marry my ex if I was going to keep the baby. When I told my ex he somehow turned the whole situation to being about him. A few days after that I realized how unhealthy my relationship was with my ex. He was going back to his old ways finding ways to make me feel bad about something starting a fight for no reason.
I told my parents I wanted the abortion. I knew if I went through with the pregnancy I would be stuck in this relationship living off welfare and not moving on in life. I wanted to tell my ex I had miscarried I was scared of his reaction if I told him about my decision. The clinic I chose to go to had such a kind caring staff they put me at ease. The counseling the clinic provided helped calm my nerves and the counselor helped me realized how unhealthy my relationship was.
After the procedure I felt relived. I'm going to be honest there are still days where I feel sad, angry at myself, scared but I just keep telling myself I did what was best for me. I'm starting my life all over again and learning to love myself a little more." —Anonymous